I've set my eyes on you, years ago. Wasn't anything more, but when it does, i'm certain it would be more.

So i need you to come to me, on your own, in your time.

That's how it is.

I've always needed pretty words, too much for my own good.

Had gathering at bb home yesterday. Been too long since we had one. At least with me everyone. I like the look in everyone's face when i'm back. This is where home lies.

Been thinking of it. I want my children to have this, close knitted family, family that sticks. They wouldn't get as much exposure, and i have an idea how that is important, as compared to say, like states. Road trips to southern cali, deserts, mountains, hills, ocean, sea. All they could do is travel from Yewtee to Batok in 10 minutes. But there's family, so i'm torn.

I like my childhood. I liked having a say in it. And i think it's lacking, in most families around here. Tuition, classes, ballad whatever. It's good for the child yes, but what about what they want?

Not having those doesn't mean i feel myself lacking in any sense.

Sigh, i probably wouldn't know now,yet.

Anyway, i was saying, yesterday was undescribable. Maybe i'm away for too long. Maybe i needed family too much. Spent some time with mandy with her homework, even that was fun. Wrestling with my cousins, making good food.

1. Brownie with vanilla ice cream topped with baileys. Awesome match the vanilla made with baileys, and the liquid soft and creamy goes perfectly with the chewy texture of the brownie. Chef: candy

2. Homemade Dao Huey. Love the different taste and texture of it. Brittle, melts, sweet. Chef: Lawrence

3. Chicken Wing. BEST FOREVER. It's always fought after, right out of the oven. Candy came in and whispered, Chicken wing's ready, and we immediately stopped our work and rushed out.

4. QUESADILLAS~ HAHA, really damn good that they liked it. It's so easy to make and awesomely nice.

We had other stuff like beehoon cooked by my popo, osyter egg we bought from the market, fishcake, topshell, all the usual party food we have.

It matters when i asked if there's still tangyuan cause i missed it, and yi says i should've said earlier so they could've bought the ingredients. No doubt they wouldve done it for me.

There's lychee martini and raspberry vodka, which i prefer the latter, and before anyone judges me, i like wine. I like the taste of it. Just alil bitter, a lil stinging, but it warms you.

There's nothing like drinking with family.

Had my first as a storyteller, and guess what, it's in chinese. I can proudly say my chinese is worth an A1. Bragger hahah.

Managed to finish it without emotions choking me. I'll always remember the way she listened, she explains, she spoke. She was happy, is happy. And the way she held me, and spoke to me.

I'm thankful to the doctors who made this possible and herself for helping her, and everyone, who stood by. I can't say how much she means to me.

Then we went down to get bubbletea, and they had to rub it in and say, oooh, someone hasnt had bubbletea for so loooong.

Came back, started mj. Seriously? My luck is totally off. Damn if i rely on my luck again. Lost 20 bucks, but law forked out :x

Wonder how would he feel if i started calling him yi chang, technically he is.

Cab home at 4 am, dead tired and the wait for cab is ardously long.

it's 1am now and i need to get in bed, pronto for Gems tomorrow.