Hello! It's new year eve today! Though i still like christmas more, but i guess i'm gonna do a sort of like new year resolution this year! Since imma be 18 next year, gotta be more serious i guess~

Alright, first! Later going to playground with dear! Must rmb to bring my bubbles and buy candles at valu$ shop later. Then have dinner, and off to mj at Yiyi's house!! Gonna high over kpop @11.30. I'm looking forward to everything, especially Minho.

Ya know, last year my wish is to spend this new year's eve with love, and yeah!! I'm spending it with Minho! :D

Oh, this brings me to yesterday's Icecamp outing. Hehs, met up with them for movie, cos i had lunch at home! Watching Dream team on the train, laughed like mad, and left others thinking i'm mad. -.-

Yeah! The tourist is pretty good!! Then zoe left and rest of us slacked at Mac's cos i wanted to have ice cream. Then aji recommended mud something. LOL. damn chocolatey and not bad! Looks like bird shit though. Then the guys played M deal, while i didn't. Cos since pretty long i kept losing. -.- Chatted with rach, and she said my words impact her! :O Surprised max.

Took train together with her, and chatted throughout. Our thoughts were pretty similar though. We fell for the same type of guy- Minho. But aside from that, pretty similar. But what she said also true~

I'm gonna remember this no matter what!
Minho is real to me. even more so than anyone has been.

But i've let him become too real.

And then she asked a question that made me think alot.

The conclusion? No.
Minho is different from him. And the way i feel for either of them is different.
I liked him cause i guess i imagined him to be someone that i wanted him to be. And it was easy, because i was still young. The image stuck, same goes with my feelings.

And i thought about Minho last night, he was someone that i would really fall for and go all out for if he is near me. Distance, and our different lifestyles are the bloody obstacles. -.- Watching IY made me realised that Korea is a really different country, culture, language, whatsoever.

I wouldn't say what about Minho that caught my eye, cos it's a secret. But i guess i saw something in him, that others probably won't notice.

So, firstly.

My first new wish goes to him! It sounds childish and foolish, but i guess it's okay for now. I hope he'll be contented, and safe. Happy and comfortable are the words i wanted to use initially, but i guess contented suits him more. He could be happy, but if he's not contented with what he have, he wont be, for long.

Second wish would be mommy and daddy. Hope everything goes well for them, and be alil' more at peace with themselves. Not to get fired up at little things, and take life easier. Everything will work out somehow!

Third goes to bro and ahma. Hope bro's safe and sound when he goes army next year! Nobody for me to bully already :( and no irritating snsd songs. Hope he'll come back brand new with life! And for ahma, hope she'll stay strong, steady, and healthy and happy as always, and keep nagging at me. LOL. ALright, actually that's not needed, but yeah, i dont mind.

I've used up 3 wishes already, but mini wish for cousins', clique to be cheerful and satisfied always.

Gonna end this post at 3, to do my cell bio prac and ppt slides!

My resolutions for this year!
Let's hope i really can do it.

1. Be more serious in my studies. Stop studying last minute and complaining. And that includes dipplus, girl.

2. Participate in the first audition i know. So it shows at least i've tried. & at least have the chance to show my brother! Hmpf.

3. Not to get stressed up so easily and keep calm.

4. Dream/daydream when it's appropriate. Don't let it affect my emotions, when what i dreamt of doesn't work out.

5. Stay cheerful!

6. Spend more time with clique, esp dear!! <3

7. Talk more with mommy and daddy and esp ahma. I guess i will be very short tempered when i'm talking to them, cos i dont know how to make them understand. So, i have to learn to slowly let them understand me. But despite so, i know they still love me and i still love them, so we're still as close.

8. Cherish every single one around me, and not to take anyone for granted.

9. Stop thinking so javascript:void(0)much about Minho.

10. GET MY OWN LIFE.

Okay, wrote so much about Minho today. I'll look back someday and probably would have a good laugh, preferably with Minho!

Maybe i should sit down and think about what i really want to do in the future. I've been so fickle-minded these few days, like seriously.

Went for long waited k session with girls today. Mad happy cos i sang lucifer. Ah anw, been thinking about Minho way damn alot. :( Ohman, i even feel like auditioning for SM just to go there to see him. What the hell is wrong with me!!

I WANT TO MARRY HIM. HELL YEAH.
Argh.

I am really reluctant to wake up today, cos i fell asleep dreaming of Minho. Oh man, what a wonderful dream. Seemed so real. In short, he came to Singapore for Dream team's dragon boat, and we met and all~ LOL

Whatever! I loveeeeeeeee this dream.

And by the way?

If Shinee came to support O levels students like they did for examinees, i'd go crazy and flunked it totaly.

Anyway, I WILL COMPLETE MY REPORT BY TODAY!! Hmpf.

Lastly, thought of something again this morning. Last last week when i went to Bkk, saw alot of beggars living on the streets. And i was upset cos of my selfish thoughts. I didnt want them to be there, cos they affect my mood. I wanted to be happy when i go overseas, and not to be reminded of hunger, starvation happening all the time, all around the world. Worst of all, i couldn't help.

On the last day, while we were walking back, we saw an old man walking beside us. He looked like a normal person, except for the fact that he has one lesser arm. But then the road weren't even, so he tripped, and lunged forward. Of cos, a fully grown man will put his arms out, to shield his body and face from slamming into the ground, but guess what. He didn't have them. The impact was huge to the extend that his wooden box broke.

I feel ashamed that i did not reach out to help him immediately, though i wanted to. Yes, i was scared.

Even though we gave him all the money we had left, cos it was our last day, but i still felt guilty.

I didn't want to blog about that at first, cos as mentioned, i'm a selfish girl. I didn't want to let my trip have any unhappiness. But then it kept sneaking up on me. Like today morning, while i was watching KBS.

Countless of people are homeless, and seperated from the ones they love. What right do i have, to demand all of these, and more?

On a side note, momma told me later, then when she tried to hold the old man up, she couldn't. “我要抓他的手，可是我找不到。" That made me laugh, even for a few minutes. And mommy ended up borrowing money from Yiyi, cos she have no money left.

HIIIIIIII, just had one helluva christmas party just now!

Anw, i'll start from christmas eve! Went xmas shopping with baby, super baby and bro! Mad squeeze @taka. But bought most of it and shopped with baby. Bro was complaining thruout.

Wanted to buy L'occitane's lotion for mama but out of stock. Yet when i went into the shop, guess it was to squeezy or what, i banged into the display item and it dropped. The box teared at the side. So the salesgirl was like, So you'll have to pay for it.

And i was like. LOL. are you kidding me? The item inside wasn't even affected. -.-

So she said i'll have to pay for the box, she'll call her manager and get back to me. So i continued browsing the shop, til i spotted another box with the same tear.

I thought: Later all the boxes like that, then they want us to pay. And not to mention, it's a high end shop for goodness's sake. They want their customers to pay for a measly box. Wth.

So i mentioned to that salesgirl, and she replied me with, Oh, that box we know, cause the previous customer broke it, and refused to pay for it.

At that moment, another lady too bumped into the display, and dropped something else. O.o

I was kinda pissed that she expected me to pay for it, while the other customer can just refused to pay for it. So i told her, since it's kinda a long wait, So how? Do i need to pay or not. Then she finally said, it's okay, we couldn't contact our manager, we'll pay for the box ourselves.

Seriously wth, it's juat a box, and it was resting on a small stand. If it's only me who bumped into me, then i'll pay for it. But obviously it wasn't just me, and they weren't insisting on payment for the first customer, so i don't get it why do they insist on payment from me in the first place.

Yeap, then went to dinner for Xavier's birthday, and then homed.

Guess yiwen's alil high on the soju, and she blurted out quite a lot of stuff.
And got me thinking again. Hehs.
Bro said to see which kinda of girl he likes, then asked her to be. And i thought, if so, then wouldn't the match be kinda fake. What happens when one day, she realised that wasn't the kinda girl she is, and is tired? I dont know, maybe to some others when you first be with the other one, you're not so much like yourself. From some examples i know anyway. But i guess that'll be cos you're still not familiar and it's hard to be the one that you actually are.

Self reflection:
I'm not the same kinda person i am, with different people.
I'm getting more to be like me to my classmates.
But it's still family, and clique more. It's easier to talk to them, and to give in to them.

But i'll feel cheated, if some day i realised the guy that i fall for, is not the guy i thought he is.
But it's okay though, i'll go with my feelings and instinct. Anyway, Minhonie! Why couldn't such guys exist in real world? Sigh, he's only 2 years older though, which is better, cos he's more mature! Maybe someday i'll meet him. :P

Well, horoscope told me that i'll have to open my mind, and not to be afraid to wish for something special this christmas!

Back to christmas, yeap! Breakfast @lot1's Mos with family today! Then prepared stuff before heading over to jiu mu's house. Slacked, played games, eat. Kay la, candy auntie prepared very nice bacon and cheese sausage, and the crab salad was awesome! Chicken wings as usual, then baked salmon, turkey, sushi, ham, crab. Quite a spread!

Played games, and did forfeit twice. :(

Then played charades as a whole, girl's team ftw! Then balloons stepping before gift exchanging! WL, was supposed to get Haagen's voucher, in the end swopped until got chocolate! But it was okay. I'm just unhappy cos i love haagen. :(

Laughed alot, hugged alot and received lots of love. <3 Christmas, season of giving.
Hope everyone liked the presents i got, cos it's really bought with them in thought!
Off to watch Dream team and Minhonie lovelovelove.

PS: His imperfections are perfect to me, so i guess he'll do! I'll die if he plays the piano to me, minhonie!

Annyeong!

I'm back from Bkk!

Was crazy there! Shopping spree for 5 whole days, and trust us to book the hotel next to the Wholesale Fashion Mall. ._.

Okay, took flight in the morning, woke up damn early, and trained there, cause must save money to spend on clothes. -.-

Had Bk for breakfast after checking in! Hungry max, then watched step up 3 on board, and skipped their breakfast cos it sucks, tho it's sq.

AND WE FINALLY REACHED BKK!!

Picked up by the limo from the hotel, or huge van. Was sitting at different places, cos it's said to be expensive, cause it's only us. And ya know, the cab had to crash into the van at my spot. Sigh.

But pretty cool, considering the fact that i flew up, when i was finally trying to sleep. Then we had to carry our luggages up the bridge across the road to our hotel, cos we didn't want to wait for them to settle the crash.

Settled down, and we started our spree!!!! Lunched @ Platinum, and shopped.

Second day-Platinum.

Actually, we went platinum every single day cos it's just next to our hotel and there's reason for it. First, mama wanted to change bro's shirt, then yiyi wanted to change her swimsuit. Oh, i bought a bikini! For 1/4 of the price of it in Singapore!!! Mega steal.

And i think i bought 6 pairs of shoes, even though it doesn't feel like. I was only buying one, before i saw two more. So i asked mommy which is nicer, and she said, aiya, buy both. ._. Then a black heels, a strappy sandals, and last heels bought on the last day!! But i like shoes! :O

Influenced yiyi to buy accessories too! :P and bought countless of shirts. Seriously.. i can start a shop of my own. ._. Good thing is i didn't buy any bags/ pouches. At least i manage to stop myself, cos i have alot of bags.

Well, i guess that's all~ It was crazy there, and watched Hello baby with sheryl every night! Yoogeun is cute!!

Went back swiss with sheryl, candy and mandy today~ Mad rush to buy books, uniforms and such. Then i decided to go home and do my io chem f.report, before christmas!!

Life's good! Xmas shopping tmr and party the next day!

O hai yo!

Busy day today! My new wardrobe finally came! More space for new clothes = Happy me. Teehees. Hyped for Bkk trip now!! Anyway, after the big hooha and clean up, meet baby at Je. Opps. Baby waited for like 3hours. Loves loves (BIG SMILEY)

Went to new Nex mall at Serangoon. It's big and all, but kinda messed up. Had Tomato thingy for lunner, cos someone skipped lunch to wait for meeeeeeeeeeeee.

Had MOF after that! and walked around and around, bought stuffs. Wanted to do manicure. But decided to do it at Bkk instead. Gonna try shaping my nails instead.

Started conversing in a maria-accent, like Mrs PI, that police lady. LOL. And cant stop. God. Then as usual, crapped about stupid stuff and laugh like mad!

And i did a good deed for the whole year! Season of giving, 10bucks for some charity thingy. O.O

Celebrated love's birthday today!

Food spree, shopping spree and photos spree! <3 funny stuff happened, like pouring half bottle of the salt into the soup, cos it's not very nice, making it even worse! Okay, it was an accident.



Pretty nice song. Have the lazy feeling.

I'm trying hard to move on, to forget. So far life's been good. Filling up my days so i won't think about it.
After all, ya know, i still wish you all the best, cos' you really deserved it. Hope you finally found someone who wont take your efforts for granted. I still remembered your past, no kidding.

Shall take a step one day, and focus on my studies. :)

I am so bored from studyingggg. Hmpf. Macdonald aint helping by tempting me with fries. Im so full thoughhh. :(

Okay, there's this lady in mac that's damn cute. She changed seat thrice holding a laptop and a tray of food. Pretty impressive considering the weight of laptop!! To top it off, she still have her bag with her! (Y)

Alright. See. Im really bored. I should really go studyyyy. Sighhhhhh. By the way. Xperia touch really sucked. And I got warned about my batt exploding! So mean. Hahaha!

Toodles.

Yawns, am so tired. Think I only got 7 hours of sleep last night, and ya know, despite using the time to sleep to study, I still screwed cell bio up badly. Eff. I don't even know wth am I thinking during the test. Kinda pissed off with myself. And I got the urge to just walk out cos I really have no idea what to write for some of the answers.

Argh, but it's over now. So no point crying over split milk. I just hated feeling like I worked so bloody hard for nothing. Okay, to be honest, I did spend alot of time in the notes, but I wasn't really paying attention to what I'm studying til the last minute. Sighhhh.

And yeah, I gotta admit that apple's touchscreen totally pwned xperia. It's so much easier to use. Not to mention, apple is seriously user friendly as well! I regretted not buying a simpler phone. Makes things so much easier.

Studied with dear yesterdayyyy. Quite distracted, but surprisingly I feel quite relaxes afterwards, kinda forgetting I have a test today. Things always hit me at the last possible moment. :(

Sometimes I wonder why ain't I born a Gemini. Cause I am so much of a thinker sometimes. But at other times, I am so freaking happy I am a cancer!