As the year draws to an end, i’m suddenly left with the realisation that this year has indeed flown past.

It feels like I’ve achieved so much this year and yet at the end of the year, I seemed to be hack where I am.

So time for reflections, time to get back on track.

This year, I’m thankful for:

1. God. Thankful that through my trials and dark periods, He is constant and never changing. Work has been busy but challenging in a good way. God has shown me through the multiple projects that I’ve been running that He is always listening and He always has a plan. It seems like it’s impossibke with your own human efforts but with a god, everything is made possible.

And this has been so reassuring to me through the other periods of 2019.

2. Colleagues especially Lynnie.
She’s another reminder that God is faithful and loving. Thank you for placing mentors in my life to guide me.

There are not a lot of people whom I trust in this world and definitely few people whom understand me without needing much explanations.

Thankful that we have never ending conversations - that we can talk about anything in the world and for understanding and trusting me without needing me to explain as I suck horribly at that.

3. My job.
I love my job. I love everything about it - from documentation (which is an absolute chore) to trying to get a reaction from my kids. I even can accept the administrative tasks.

I thank God everyday for guiding me and calling me to this job that I may spend my days feeling fulfilled and like I’ve made a difference.

I love it when kids are annoyed by me (not so much when they annoy me), I love it when they trust me enough to let me into their world, I love that I have a special relationship with them that no one can mimic and I love it that I’m helping them to be better at communicating their thoughts with the outside world. To help them cope a little better in this cold and harsh world - and also to sow a little seed in their little hearts that Jesus is the light, the warmth and the giver of love.

And a new concept that I was introduced to: Ikigai


And I think I found my ikigai - doing what I love, what i’m good at, what the world needs and what I can be paid for.

Resolutions for 2020:

1. I want to be better at logging down my thoughts - a whole chunk of my memories disappeared with Dayre when they revamped and all my drafts are gone. Only left with some drafts in trusty old blogger.

2. I wish to be more intentionally and conscious with spending time with God. It’s easy to look over quiet time and time with God when the cares of the world are weighing onto you. 

3. I want to travel more. I thought I was done with travelling but I miss the excitement of being in a new place all by myself. I like the thrill of not knowing what’s around the corner and serendipity.

4. I also wish to be more careful with my words but at the same time, I wish I wouldn’t be so considerate all the time.