What do you do, when a dream seems to die over and over again and you don't know how to begin again.
They say that "The grass is greener on the other side" but truly "The grass is green where you water it".
Thoughts have been swimming 'round in my head these days and perhaps that's one of the reasons why I'm getting such vivid dreams.
Labels. A discussion that I had last week was talking about our labels for ourselves. I started with the thought that I didn't have any labels. But it struck me that I do. I had all these invisible labels on myself and I didn't know about them, until I walked into them. And these labels came from the past experiences that I had, subconsciously protecting myself. But protection can also be a form of limitation, or restriction.
"We learned so much from our experiences, that we became more sure about what we want, and at the same time, more picky with what we want."
I thought that was a good thought.
And perhaps, we learn through disappointments. Yet, do we really move past whatever it is that's left us discouraged and disappointed? Or how do we move past whatever it is that's left us discouraged and disappointed?
The definition of disappointment is when there is a chasm between our expectations and what actually happened. And to move on from the disappointments, we need to accept the disappointment, recognise that it happened and don't act like it didn't.
We name it. We grieve it. We process it. We use it.
My expectations for the past two years have differed greatly from what has truly happened. For example, I wanted to travel but travelling was banned. We had such great plans, but our plans fell through. I think I've grieved for these plans though occasionally they still sneak up unannounced. And now, I have processed it.
"The grass is greener where you water it."
I've long learned that the grass just looks greener on the other side, but now I learn that the grass is greener where you water it. And hardwork is paramount to maintain green pastures.
If Job can live through such extreme circumstances and never lost faith in God, I need to at least try.
