Got reminded by something me and cy said before. Finish exams machiam fight finish war. One last exam left! My love-and hate relationship with my mortal enemy.

I really really like baspat. And it seems so bloody easy when he's teaching us, but apparently, when it's down to me and bb robins, i am STUCK. STUCK LIKE STUCK IN A MUDHOLE.

If gembio killed me, i swear baspat will HAUNT me. IF-1? Chicken pie compared to baspat's chromosomal location? 5q21. If im not studying science, i swear i would think that's a flight number. ._. Like secret agent code only.

Anw, spazzing while watching Mei Le Jia You. Cross my heart that i love mike he in EVERY SINGLE DRAMA HE ACTS. Probably because his role is always the same type of guy. My prince charming. Other guys chose to wear black suits. Not him. But i'm hating that part where he got into an accident.

Somehow when life gets too good, something bad is bound to happen. So i'm content with life now. I dont need every aspect to be perfect, cos when you have something you yearn for, you end up losing them.

It made me feel loved when family kept telling me not to study so hard and just go to sleep or watch tv or do something I like.

I don't dislike studying. I just hate exams. Though it's essential cause it's the one that determines our effort. But what if your effort is just not enough? I don't dislike what I'm studying. But there's just too much to remember. I don't think there's a limit to human brain, but to my pint brain, yes. My brain is really full.

I tried concentrating. God knows or whatever tricks there is. But there is a limit, and I think i reached that point. I need some space, a change of air, to remind of who I am, to take my brain off repetitive stuff and stimulate it.

Reassuring words from family all but helped me to be more determined. I don't wanna let them down even though I know all they wanna me to do is to be happy. I'm not unhappy.

I know I will be, when I tried my best and still get disappointing results. That's me.


So I don't wanna make me unhappy.
Not gonna make me unhappy now too, singing along to the songs likeacrazyonly.

To take my mind off stuff, thinking of what to wear for hk trip.

Yup, spontaneous hk trip. I think I got my spur of the moment genes from my mummy. Mama asked me if I wanna go hk this sep. And I said yup but no time leh. If not the week I end my exams we go. Just in time for retreat and swc. So checked everything on Monday and settled it yesterday. Was thinking of goin for 3 days, then mama said too little, shopping leh. Then I said 4? In the end we decided on 5 days. Then mama told me today, jialat, I think we go there sure no money come back. 5 days lehhhhhhh. Go bkk also 4 days we also pockets clean alr. So she asked me go find some places we can go instead of going shopping. Then she went on and of about macau and cruise at hk. Then she asked, if nt you don't go retreat and swc, we go cruise on hk after 5 days to Taiwan then shop at Taiwan vefore flying back. Then I said eh you wanna fly the whole world ah.

Hahahhha Anw mama went jb alr! So I'm slacking here! Really don't feel like cramming anything into my miniature puny microscopic brain. The info to cram is like 19339149271948102749x102848302749362937391 kg/conc

Home is a place where you know you can leave and trust it to be there whenever you need it. If you cant leave the place, it's never a home to start with. It's your prison.

Feeling quite contented today cause i finished reading my book, and my drama!! love that 9pm drama, chasing it with mama. Hate sat and sun's cause no new episodes are uploaded.

Anw, was studying patho just now, somehow, some words triggered me to research on tarot, and i got linked to gutenberg, and realised i saw his name somewhere.

THEN I REALISED IT WAS FROM BOOKS OF SECRETS. THAT GUY THAT INVENTED PRINTING PRESS.

I thought that book was half fiction, though it was, most of the important facts from his past are true.

Holy cow. It's so amazing what books can teach us, that textbooks cant. For a start, it arouses our interest. -.-

Honestly, lectures are fine, if i read it once. Interesting enough, it's the after process that requires me to rmemember every single detail -.-
Wane my interest. Only patho can retain my interest, cause there's always new stuff to be learnt.

Okay fine, should really go study again. Gonna go for dinner and movie later! Only studied for an hour today. nevermind, epitome of optimism. LOOOOL. 1hr of productive studying is better than 10hrs of crap.

Home is a place where you know you can leave and trust it to be there whenever you need it. If you cant leave the place, it's never a home to start with. It's your prison.

Feeling quite contented today cause i finished reading my book, and my drama!! love that 9pm drama, chasing it with mama. Hate sat and sun's cause no new episodes are uploaded.

Anw, was studying patho just now, somehow, some words triggered me to research on tarot, and i got linked to gutenberg, and realised i saw his name somewhere.

THEN I REALISED IT WAS FROM BOOKS OF SECRETS. THAT GUY THAT INVENTED PRINTING PRESS.

I thought that book was half fiction, though it was, most of the important facts from his past are true.

Holy cow. It's so amazing what books can teach us, that textbooks cant. For a start, it arouses our interest. -.-

Honestly, lectures are fine, if i read it once. Interesting enough, it's the after process that requires me to rmemember every single detail -.-
Wane my interest. Only patho can retain my interest, cause there's always new stuff to be learnt.

Okay fine, should really go study again. Gonna go for dinner and movie later! Only studied for an hour today. nevermind, epitome of optimism. LOOOOL. 1hr of productive studying is better than 10hrs of crap.

It makes me happy when people guessed my moods. Hehehe.

I am soooo sick of studying. Even though it's not mugging but it's still irritating when I'm out yet I think of all the stuff I need to do. :( at least after today can concentrate on exam and after exam I can play like maaaaaaad. Gonna make my shinee shirt, cruise, and outings. Wanna work but no time. I swear I hate dip plus itp.

Suddenly I'm not ready to grow up. So scary to go to polyclinic and work when you're not so sure about stuff yourself. It's life and death :(

And I forget to Blog about ndp and something extraordinary happened. Overall that day was good cos celebration at dajie's house fun and the food is damn good. Then ndp was surprisingly engaging and even touching at that end. Grown much mre patriotic.
And when we're taking the train home cause mama can't fetch us, which is another long story. I was reading ocrm with dear. Then I noticed the guy beside me quite cute and I mentioned that to dear. Then suddenly he talked to me. LOL. Was like O.o and damn damn damn shocked. Was probably mixed but defo not sporean from his accent.
Oh the endin was I turned away (after a short convo) cos I looked damn cui, course I feel it's so wasted. ._. The next day. Hehe I wasn't hiuing much that night cos I'm so tired and my brain ain't working.

Okay right btw bought a pretty dress ytd! That's probably the most exciting thing that happened ytd apart from going dear's house.

I can't say I can't be bothered cos I probably must and should. Then what should I say??
Miss people whom I can actually relate and talk to. It's a big and scary world out there!

July 14 Cancers are quick-witted, highly verbal, and prone to react in a haughty manner when crossed. Although social and fun-loving, they are more serious than they appear. They understand the structure needed to maintain tradition. Cancer Information for July 14 You should embrace: Distinction, dedication to duty, acceptance You should avoid: Feelings of inferiority, inertia, doubts

15/8/2011 11:25:35 PM Yingting Cassia ♥ Qute true you know
15/8/2011 11:25:42 PM Yingting Cassia ♥ you are more serious than you appear
15/8/2011 11:25:44 PM Yingting Cassia ♥ this is true~


15/8/2011 11:25:59 PM Yingting Cassia ♥
Friends and Lovers
July 14 people are likely to feel especially close to someone who has acted as a mentor to them. In love, either they met their partner through an unusual set of circumstances or they persevered through difficult times in order to keep their marriage or relationship together.

15/8/2011 11:26:08 PM Yingting Cassia ♥ Children and Family Whether they are aware of the fact, July 14 folks have a desire to constantly reconnect with their upbringing. They have great respect for their parents. As parents, they are often far too permissive. They believe a child should have maximum freedom to develop his or her own potential without interference from parents.

15/8/2011 11:26:16 PM Yingting Cassia ♥
Health
July 14 natives are hard workers and may suffer the effects of stress as a result. They often complain of severe headaches--usually the result of too much work and too little recreation. During periods of calm, the headaches generally disappear.

15/8/2011 11:26:31 PM Yingting Cassia ♥
Career and Finances
With their gift of gab, July 14 individuals make good lawyers, professors, and journalists. Money does not come easily to these people--they may have to work hard to achieve financial security. Yet once they do, their situation is likely to remain fixed. Dreams and Goals As long as July 14 people have a means to express themselves, they're content.

15/8/2011 11:26:38 PM Yingting Cassia ♥
If they do receive some measure of praise or acceptance for their beliefs, it's just frosting on the cake.


hehehehe, dear sent me this!! quite true la. not bad. But i dont wanna be lawyer. prof or journalist could work. jet here and there to write reports!! :D

Annoyed Annoyed Annoyed.

Annoyed cause i screwed up my tests.
Annoyed cause i studied flow cyto for the whole of last night yet nothing goes in.
Annoyed cause i told myself that diagram probably will be coming out yet i didnt take the effort to at least make sense out of it.
Annoyed cause now that bloody diagram costed me.
Annoyed cause then it'l pull my proteomics down and waste my effort for the past year.
Annoyed cause im having 6 mnore tests, and no time to study for exams.
Annoyed cause i'm fking screwed.

Hate my life and gonna hate myself too after this.

Cant take it. needa go for a run.
Even now im taking a break, i'm feeling as if i shouldnt and needa squeeze both my tv and computer time together. ARGH

Cant help it. Cant help seeking for perfection. Dont know why, but it does make me happy. Example? Getting ridiculously happy cos my notes damn pretty. Yeah.

Been eating alot of nonsense food like cheese fries and waffles, icecream. Yet nonsense food is comfort food.

Sigh. ITP for Dipplus is gonna be at TPY. I hate travelling, which is why i chose SP instead of JCes. Now i am travelling to TPY every single day. Life is GONNA SUCK. But i dont wanna do it next year june when i have fyp. THT IS GONNA SUCK MORE. I'm not gonna screw that up. Not even in my dreams.

Been screwing up my Year 2 modules. Like crap.

Gonna miss everything when i'm off to states. Like grandma who loves to talk to me cause she's just so lonely at home. Was home early today. Yup, like 1. Returned to her "I WON LUCKY DRAW. SO LUCKY" And i was so cheered.

Then she went on and on about how tired i looked, how skinny i become (-.-) and how heaty i seemed. Kept giving me bottles of water.
She's the ONLY ONE that thinks i'm not eating enough. ._.

Mama just walked to the bank and printed out the statement for bank acc for meeeee. Hehe, though she kept complaining i'm the most troublesome one, but it's never true. Cause Bro's as troublesome as me, or maybe even worse. Then i asked, why your paper so giamchye one. Then she said, EH YOU THINK EASY AH. MUST CARRY MY PLASTIC BAG. I ALSO NO FILE. STILL MUST COME BACK COOK FOR YOU. HEHEHE.

I'm gonna have to remember all these, so i won't forget to cherish them.

I swear there's something about xmas songs that made you wanna smile and dance crazily, and cry at the same time.

Damn upset that i'm gonna miss xmas now already. Swear would tear once i'm there. :( Gonna miss the xmas mad rush at taka for presents, going to yiyi's house, and wrapping presents. EVERYTHING. :(

Instead, gonna roam states/LA/BIG APPLE, and feel the festive season, but what is it without family and friends. Fun, love, laughters, alcohol, food, turkey, salad whatever.

CAN I FLY BACK FOR XMAS?

Oh, and new year, cant see my niece and nephews. :( They're growing up all so quicklyyyyy. I wanna capture time at the moment.


Was deciding if i should add or not. Made my decision not to. BUT EVERYTIME I ON MY COM, SURE GOT MIXED FEELING. :( christmas reminds me of you.