Don't fight to be the best, fight to be the only.
Ooh, really happy today because I had such a good talk w my mamama last night.
Teehee teehee.
Realised that the mumsie is my source of chillaxness wth. She's forever the one telling me it's okay to not get the best grade available or whatsoever heck. LOL. Sometimes I got caught up with the flow and forgot that I don't actually have to have it. It's always been trying my best and accepting what goes, which usually is sufficient to get where I wanted to.
Then mama told me to just be myself.
But not that I'm saying studying is bad cause I really enjoy what I'm studying, so much that I feel happy when I learned about all those mirror neurons or paradigms of psychology that I was doing yesterday, but it's just more of spending much much more time w learning materials nowadays.
Told mama about seeing mags a few days ago at westend, and Chloe was telling her how studious we are and that uni is really quite stressful, even cassia studies. Her first reaction was, cassia is studying?!?
Which amuses mama so much that she laughed for a good one minute. But I thought this change is good. I should revise and not scrap pass like I did in poly. Lol we'll see how long this conviction pass yo.
The second happy thing mama said was TO SHOP!!!!!!! Okay la technically she didn't exactly say that, but she didn't say anything about shopping too much. What she said was, if you need it, then buy it lor. But honestly, everything is a want because I'm so deprived of shopping spree. Whoever said shopping sprees are extravagant is wrong. Because shopping sprees satisfy you for a prolonged period and the guilt kinda last longer as well. So 3-4 shopping sprees a year is enough for me. But now I'm practically shopping every two weeks. O em gee. Judging myself totally.
But I do need some new black pants and tops for clinicals because they said to not have sleeve below the elbow for infection control but what the heck, it's autumn/winter for goodness sake and it's freezing if you didn't notice, imma freeze likka Popsicle in the hospital.
But so far life's been smooth, doing the same old routine every week, school, revise, cook, chill, grocery shopping.... That's a killer. I kinda think I inherited mumsie's shopping trait. Half of it anyway. Grabbing stuff of the shelves without looking at the price, but then I would buy things in advance and keep it while mama prefers to get things fresh. LOL
I really needa go revise cause imma go yoga and Pilates soon wooo.
不争第一，只求唯一。
Dorrain recently shared this sentence with me, and I realized everyone has their own ways of interpreting this. But for me, it tied in a lot of whatever mama told me and whatever I have always known.
Approx one more month to exams before the break, sigh mug mug mug.
