Was feeling much better today.

Untangled some stuff that were meant to be separated. It was finally out. I felt bad that i was adding to the trouble with some of my own, that has no relations to what's going on. But i guess i retreated, and i dont wanna care. I dont mind that i don't fit, not anymore. And that they only asked when they needed. Cos i'm sure now, that all of these, wasn't what i wanted.

Cheered by some old friends. It's a wonder how different people feels differently about me. I thought i appeared to be more mature and less cheerful in poly. But i like it that my sec sch mates feel i'm always cheerful! Felt so protected by them.

Went to some nyonya restaurant for dinner today! Ate til i feel like bursting now. Satisfied. Hehe, read Alphabet Weekend, one of the better books i've borrowed. Gosh, i would say that i read everything, but this time round some of the books i've borrowed really suck. Half of the time i don't know what is it trying to say, and the other half i spend re-reading it.

It matters that people care. Even if they didnt know what's going on. Wanted to spill everything out, but still highly strung, and havent got over it, didn't want to remind myself of it. Probably when i'm over it, and needs to let it go, then i'll do so. For now, forget will do. I need to stay happy.

Should I even bother reaching out for it?
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I dont know anything, not even what I feel. Waking up to forget everything sounds so good. Thanks for sucha wonderful brain. All it needs is to stay that way. And I know just what to do.

Used to remember someone said I was in denial. But now then I know how perfect that is for me. Honestly, I didnt want to know now. I could just live in my own bubble with the ones important to me happily. Why did I have to go ruin everything. Why did I want to help? I wanted what bro had. I didnt know how different it was. And how real humans are. Stupid to believe in happily ever after.

How I wished last week never ended.

Right, anw. Last week was an awesome week. Celebrated marc and yx'd birthdays! :) k-ed at vivo's partyworld. Missed the two jokers seriously. They cant ever finish a bloody song seriously?!! Took alot gayt videos of them. :( need to get permission from them to post though. If not they post the one I tried to roll down the stairs. ._. Oh. But on different day. Anw, had dinner with them at Kim Gary's. Gossip alot of stuff too. Like what we did last timeee and my famous kick! Hehehe. Was glad that mandy joined us. If not I sure get bullied one. Hmpfff.

Thennnn, went out with mandy on wed. Town cos she wanted to get some stuff. Hehe. Someone bought her Manhattans bag lah !! Mad happy she when her mum said would pay half of it. But not feeling too well that day, didnt really know why. Hmpf. Had cold rock and hot tomato and my stomach had to act up again. Hehe. Then went oher to nex tot movie premier! Oh yeah!!! Had short hair for that day. Diary of a wimpy kid was damnnnnn cute. Went home cos had Headache then.


Woke up late the next day cos of the bruddy headache, so went marc'd hse late! Hehe so sorrrrryyyyyyyy. Cos he didnt pole people to be late. Had pizza delivered and played with his doggggg. Mighty cutenessssss. I think it loves me la. Keep licking my faceee. :D right. The three of them bullied me. Played some game and I lost. So had to roll down the stairs. Hmof. Marc took video of it. But I think I was wearing his hat, so not that embarrassing. Then went cou's hse cos Ryan asked me to. HAHAHA. Taught him math. (Y) had dinner and went home early cos wasnt feeling too good. Ps mandy, sorry loveeeee. :)

Was supposed to catch riding hood on Friday but went back for fo stuff. And bro came back late night!! He went out on sat leaving us alone. :( slacked at home, before going out for dinner at bugis and caught riding hood with fam and mauching. Hehe. Pretty good lei I think. Guess the wolf out within like 10th minutes of the movie and bro guessed wrongly. He said army made him more stupid. Hehehehe!!!

Went for jap buffet with bro and mauching on Sunday. LOL. Ate til we wna puke plsssssss. I ate like almost the entire plate of chicken wings. Gossip with them too. Ok, bro was busy watching the tv and trying not to look at his sashimi while we stared into the space too. Our topics were damn funny too. Ever met two timers? Imagine thatttt. Then walked around finding a hat for bro. Saw one at armani xchange when shopping with marcccc. I like that soooo much. Then rushes home for bro to pack and book in to realise that neither of us brought keys. Lol damn sad. Was locked out. And my periodic stomachache aint helping. At least had internet and spend an hour watching idol army whole waiting for mama to save usssss. Hehehe.

Okay lah. Im still damn tired gonna rest now. Aint gonna care much. Just be in my own world. Own pace. Peace.

Pictures!






Hello! I'm back from cruiseeeee!

Hehe, pretty good this time round. Though i was bored, AND i saw MJ. Yet didn't play. :( Hehe, hm, food's awesome. Watched mn movie Inception while waiting for them to come out from casino. Hehe, i love movies like these. Evenly spaced out plots that links perfectly, and requires deeper thinking!


oh yeah, i love tanning. Feels so shiok sleeping in the sun. Okay, not really, was nearly half asleep in the end. But the sun's not that good cos sometimes it disappears and the wind blows so it's freaking cold, then it comes out and it'll be hot like hell. But it's good when there's sun and there's wind. Okay, will have to try it before ou understand what i'm saying. Tanned for like 3 hours(?), before Jacuzzi, waited for it to be cleared before i went in. Shy. HEHE.

Hehe, i seriously think i look young, or rather kiddish. LOL. And haveta agree with the horoscope! Yay, this year alot of 桃花运, but mama says so many not good. LOL. Also not say i want all! Anw, there's this two guys who went into the jacuzzi with me. -.- But i think i ignored them, though i didnt mean to, i was watching my drama. But anw, when i was leaving, they tried to talk to me, hehehe. Was flattered lahhhh. But so not the point, the point is, i thought they look quite young. Maybe 16?

Then went for Shen mu yu tong's concert! Hehe! i seriously think they're together already lor!! Pretty good live! Then went arcade. Played soulcaliber and metal slug cos they're on promotion. I suck at guitar hero now. :( Used to be pretyt good at it. Then went for daytona alone. But a lil' boy joined me. Hehe, i think he thinks i'm trashable. Hmpf. Okay lah, but i was wearing heels, so probably he's allowed to think that. And there i was feeling a lil scared that i'll lose to a boy, and in the end he turned out to be okay only. COS HE WAS CHOOSING INTERMEDIATE AT FIRST YOU SEE. =.= Hehe, proud to say i won him by 2 rounds. Then when i told bro, he was like, O.O you're proud to win a lil boy. -.-! HE DONT UNDERSTAND LAH. I BET HE FEELS WE'RE BROTHERS, INSTEAD OF BROTHER AND SISTER. -.- thanks to him i know all sorts of games, AND he dont know mine. -.- Seriously, -.-

Mn movie was Sorcerer's Apprentice, pretty good too, but the ending's a lil bit rushed. It'll be good if they play more emphasis on the learning magic and r/s between magic and physics. It's like a long hunt, yet despite how difficult they say it is to destroy morgana, it's over in a matter of 5- 10 minutes.

Then slept like a log til next morn, before we left!

went for fo meeting today, headache in the morn. =.= Yep! bought stuff. hehe, bloody heavy. i hate trolleys. =.= and played l4d for the rest of the afternoon. DARN COOL. i like.

I need a break. Maybe, just maybe, after this is all over, i'll go backpacking, around the whole world, and see what's in there, for me.



I feel like going to the seaside real badly. If i close my eyes tight enough, i could almost breathe in the saltiness of the sea, feel the the cool breeze on my face, and sink my feet into the soft beady sand.

Sigh, it's getting really hard to communicate. I tried my best, i really did. Monday was sucha sucky day. Okay, probably i'm not used to working again. Was cold as hell at the venue. AND I HATE COUNTING MONEY. Reminds me of the ntuc days. Sigh, hard to explain why. I want to go out and spend money this holiday, not to slog my guts out.

I feel so uncontented. I AM SO BORED AT HOME. I dont get why people can stay at home for the whole day and not feel bored. Spent the whole day watching dramas, and i'm bored til i wanna jump floor. There's something seriously wrong with me. LOL. I cant be too bored, and i cant be too busy. Argh.

Started on a new drama today, Sunny Happiness. Pretty good. But not funny enough. So i'm still bored. :(

I WANT BORED DIE ALREADY. SOMEONE SAVE ME, OR ASK ME OUT.

Just came back from add, hehe. Went out with momma for our appt for hair scalp today! A new therapist helped me. And he's pretty good-looking. AND DAMN AWESOME. Spent like 30minutes blowing my hair for me, styling it. Ohgod. Very gentle too! I like. Another requirement added now! hehehe! I cant stop marveling over him. Looking forward to my next appt!

I shall post pictures of my hair up!!




Alright, only have time for two. cos imma work now! Toodles!

It's finally the end of exams yesterday, i thought that day would never ever come. Ever since exams started, i couldn't sleep well. ._. Told mom today that i think i've forgotten how to sleep. Sigh.

Went to have popeyes after exams ytd and caught I.Am.Number.Four. Holy, that guy is hot man. The whole cinema squeals when he's half naked. Which is like twice or thrice. Hehe, mok and flo's like *hi5* he comes out naked, with chloe in between. Funny max. Then slacked at Frolicks, discussing chalet stuff before heading to Plaza Sing. Mag's not feeling well suddenly, then when we were taking the train home, she's like damn white. Stressed me out totally.

Went to Itacho with dear today. Heh, perf sushi! Then sang our lungs out at k. Damn shiok. Then went to ALjunied to meet family for dinner~

Saw an article on Yahoo News just now. SO irritating. Another baby is found abandoned. For god's sake, the umbilical cord is still attached. Yeah, you probably dont know babies are actually well protected in your womb, and bloody sterile. Through the first breathe it takes, it can accumulate microbes. How could you just leave it near a secluded staircase.I dont get why there are such irresponsible parents around. If you don't want the child, go for a bloody abortion. It's better than giving birth to a child then leaving it to its fate. Oh, you're hoping it would meet better parents? Or what, it's against your conscience to kill a child? Right, then leaving it to its own fate isn't killing him. You're letting the child decide it's own fate, is that it? You are NOT killing the child, when you leave them there. There's no If? WHAT IF THE CATS BITE THE CHILD? WHAT IF NO ONE NOTICED? And even if the child grows up, how do you think he'll feel, knowing his own birth parents didn't want him, irregardless of the situation they're in. Some parents would rather starve to death, then to let their kids starve. Oh god, now i'm typing this in such a hurry, cos i'm freaking bloody pissed. And it's making me feel pissed with everything.

What the bloody hell is wrong with the world?

Argh. I just want to disappear to a place where there's only me sometimes. Living in my world sounds better than this. Irritating stuffs just keep happening. It's hard to say no.

It's finally to the last paper! I finally get what's wrong already.
Home's my haven. Insider's secret.

Anyway, met up with flo for lunch today. Damn smart girl cause her phone died on her and we havent meet. AND without a place and time. Thank goodness for Twitter. Heh.

Bro's at field camp now. Hehehehe, can't imagine his life! No worries, he'll come out strong! I hope.. HAHA.

Watched shinee's jap concert yesterday. God, i'd die to be able to watch their concert. I'm not worried that they won't come. I'm just worried that i couldn't get the tickets.

I cant decide if i should upload it. Damn.