In her life, she spoke of contentment. It wasn't the best, but it was hers. It was enough. Simple, impactful.

There's so much I didn't know about her. Resilient, filial, loyal, loving. She had so much years in her, she didn't stop them from falling cause they made her stronger. They made her into who she is today. Who we love, cherish and respect.

She came through everything for them, for me maybe, for us. And now, we''re gonna do the same.

I wanna be there for her.

Been reading all my love novels cause I can't stand the heat when i go out. ._. Still not really used to the weather, the people over here. It's so amazing how fast I got used to the life over there.

No matter how much I dislike the place, it's home. The people whom I love calls it home, so it is to me as well.

It will be wonderful if I can combine the two place together. I can't get used to driving half a day just to see family or even flying half of the globe.

There's so much factors pulling me to states, and I'm considering it. But just one factor captures me and renders me prisoner. Family, friends.

I learnt that it's so hard to find love, especially for me. Don't think I ever had. Not the kind I'm talking about.

Wonders if I ever will.

Then again everything changes so fast, I dot even have enough faith anymore. How do I pump in for another? To risk opening your heart means you're giving them a knife and the chance to stab you bullseye.