It means to lose courage and be less brave. 

According to Dictionary.com, it means to lose confidence and enthusiasm.

It also leaves you zapped and weak. 

I guess that has been the emotion that I've been trying to identify for the past few days/ weeks. 

Thank you Jesus for speaking to me. 

I don’t know why i’m discouraged but I guess part of me is also disillusioned at how things might not be the way I thought it is. Silly me always thinks the best of every situation so I guess reality hits pretty hard sometimes. 

I think I’ve tried so damn hard this time. So I’ll leave the rest to God. In Him I trust.