So this line got to me. 

“Inside me, I’ve been mourning the loss of the last two years.”

I’ve also been trying to comfort myself through picking up new skills, taking the time out for self-care, and constantly learning and gaining new knowledge.

Hence subconsciously I think I also felt upset, whenever I ‘wasted’ a day, if I did not spend it productively.

But today, I finally felt at peace.

That even though the past two years have been a tough grind, I’ve been through it. 

I’ve picked up pottery which has been so therapeutic. I have been given so many opportunities to grow as a clinician. I have grown much closer to God. 

God has answered my prayers - all I had to do was to just open my eyes and look. 

Thank you Lord for your wisdom, your guidance and your providence.

I was contemplating for the longest time, if I should take up another course. I’ve been putting it off for a while because on one hand, I didn’t really wish to tie myself up. But God has provided and He has spoken. His plans are so clear as his gifts to me are. 

I pray that my heart will be at peace and I place all my plans in your mighty hands. I trust in Your plans for my future. May I remain as a tree, deeply rooted in your word. 

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I lift my hands to heaven
Hear my heart surrender
I tell my soul again
You are Lord of all
And though the seas are raging
You will speak and tame them
In You I find my rest
You are in control