Today someone asked me, “2020 is ending. What is something you are grateful for this year?”
And to be honest, the first thought that crossed my mind was how God remained constant through it all and God’s blessings for my work.
A dear friend told me recently that God has truly blessed my career. If I were to say that work is not something I would strive hard for, and that work is secondary in my priorities, I wonder what would God feel?
Then I suddenly realised that I’ve been throwing all of God’s blessings in his face when I say that.
So I want to be thankful this time, before the year ends. For whatever Lord may give me, I will do it and give it 💯.
I continue to pray that God will continue to hear my heart’s desires and feel my anxieties. I pray that I’ll be able to cast these upon him.
So this year, I’ve decided that I’ll only set resolutions for things that I have control over:
- Attend BSF faithfully - i’m so glad that I signed up for BSF before the year ends
- Learn a new skill e.g. pottery or something artsy
- Achieve a better work life balance
- Be more thoughtful
Sigh looking at my resolutions - it’s kinda sad how my resolutions were to travel to 2 new places 3 years ago and how it has changed.
Nevertheless, I am thankful for what 2020 has taught me.
I’ve learned that wanting something and planning for something with my whole heart doesn’t mean that it will happen. I’ve learned that God is in control of some things. I’ve learned to let go and let God.
But i’m glad that I remained constant in some areas. To be able to try my best so I don’t have any regrets. To be disciplined. To be calm and collected through all the tomatoes that life threw at me this year.
I do hope 2021 will be a better year though I remembered hoping that 2020 will be that great year. 2021 is though to a good start. I hope it gets better.
