Finally some me time so that i can lie in bed without feeling like i'm being rolled over by a truck or bulldozer.
Wasnt very productive today cause really, i only did like 3 lectures. But i will wake up early tomorrow to get some work done i swear.
So so so lazy to tidy up my half assed blog posts cause mainly they are supposed to be able to immediately upload but as i write eventually i know i need to screen it before i upload.
And somehow i have a feeling it will be the same with this post. But no, i am gonna try to make it neutral.
Exam really sucks big time cause it sucks up so much of you mentally and it doesnt help that before my voice paper which i mentally wanted to do so well because well, i always wanted to be good at things that are difficult. LOL. Or put in another way, i like complexity. In a sense that i like to break it down (cause i know i can), and having that aha moment and feeling damn satisfied that i worked it out. That and its easy peasy to me lol.
That aside, memorising on the other hand is not hard, but it just sucks so much out of me that i hate it.
The mental stress of it leaving your head wtf, the physical stress cause usually i cant sleep well, and there's no emotional stress lah. Too much voice now i keep thinking in these terms. Someday i'll get conversion aphonia from chronic stress lol
Right, i was saying voice went not very well. Why do i say that? Because well, it wasnt that bad. But i came out of the hall feeling like i've been trolled damn badly by anna, and echoed by everyone else. I expected... more variety of questions. Everything she said that is important, my ass.
On top of that, my car had to die on it and i really have no time to spare wondering if i should make a run for it or risk my life cycling up hill in the rain. In that precious 5 mins, i decided my life was more important than a bloody trolling voice paper so i ran to school and holy, reached right on the dot. Thank goodness.
So so angry when i came back after jump starting my car back to life (lol- took me 5mins after i found the latch to my bonnet, feel so invincible with my amazing jumpstarter money well spent, says me wts) and proceed to blast some heads off in l4d. Left the first two games cause losers were just being lame, like throwing molo again at the same spot wtf?, or leaving the teammates alone and running off. Dont know which one is more stupid, but i cant stand stupidity. Lol finally decide that nope, ignorance wins over stupidity anyday.
The last game were damn awefuzz cause we really stick together and restarted the game 4 times cos we attempted hard. That and i was lagging in high heavens in ping avg. 300. How i managed to still carry on i have no idea. So anyway, it was so warm that we leave no one behind even though we could have cleared the game lol. Came back to save me even though im on my last knockdown from giving my last health pack to another. And i made friends over l4d lol
After that longass game, i got a headache LOL which marks the end of my studying streak.
Been doing so much nonsense, reading useless articles and reading dayre about other person's life. That is why i love dayre. Not the annoymity as much lah, but that it's such a postive platform and so encouraging.
Its so enlightening and made me realise so many little stuffs that i have been overlooking. Not sure if its subconsciously or i genuinely overlooked them, but its good that at least i know now.
The little stuffs are important, because it tells you about things you never knew. But they are so often overlooked when all you see is the glamour, the big thing.
