Every time I thought that I should stop writing all my thoughts, I would find a thousand reasons why I shouldn't. Those thousand reasons still exist. But today I found one, that i would remember for life, to not stop

I'm still learning.

Sometimes I forget that I've been through certain thought processes and I kind of forgot that I already knew how to deal with certain stuff. I absolutely love rereading my old writes. It lets me relive my memories, and I really like how I was so descriptive in the past. Got lazier now, it seems like I either have more stuff to do, or just lesser time to write. But everyone has the same amount of time, it's how you use it. Time will never be an excuse. If it matters, you'll always have time, isn't it?

I miss the days in states, I can never get over how much. It was worse in the earlier days when I first returned to sg, I'm always comparing and comparing. Then I realized, all hose comparison is making me miss the states more, and I'm not going back, not anytime soon anyway, so why am I making myself sad?

I need books. I need time. Purely free time and not just a few hours a day which I give myself as a freaking reward from studying. Time when it feels like I've all the time in the world. Time when I don't have to think. Time when I don't have to worry. Maybe time when I can finally be just me. So maybe, I need some me time.

And the reason why I don't have it now, because I've been too free with my time. Need to be a little more selfish, more determined, and stop being a yes.