End of xmas celebrations, start of the new year's. Never really like new year since it is so close to xmas and  the meaning of a new year never really got to me. About the resolutions and syuff cause heck it, half of the time i dont remember and three quarter of it i dont make them. You dont need a new year to change.

But it really is a new year for me onwards next year and i wonder what it brings me. Trepidation, instead of excitement. Sigh. Must be the mood im in.

Feel so damn shag that my eyes are really half close like i am this morning. From 20dec to now which is just the morning of 29 dec it feels like a month to me. Just 9 days straight. I dont think i spent a quarter of the time at home, and less of it sleeping.

All of it will make me miss more, appreciate more, cherish more. I hate it, but im thankful for that. So let's go the second round for new year then chinese new year. And everything will change.

Shag until i dont wanna think anymore, not analysing not anything. Let it be and be it all for the best. 

'Tell me princess, when did you last let your heart decide?' A whole new world- Aladdin