You know the feeling when it gets tough,
When you feel so hollow on the inside
When u could hurt even listening to a happy song
And when theres this internal war inside you berating yourself theres no reason to feel this way?
I shouldnt, i know. But we are all always doing things we shouldnt.

People grow up, and They find new things in life. I still cant learn letting go with blessings. I can only smile, because smiling hides all my hurts, disappointment, and tears.

When you give so much, and in return, you get lesser than expected, that disappointment cuts straight into your soul. It makes u wonder, where did u go wrong and eventually u question yourself, your own worth.

I cant, let myself be open to that kinda pain. I cant do it.

Some words rang a chord in me today.

"我需要的，是一个人
一个爱我的人
一个能给我安全感的人

你知道吗，这里，是空的"

And i guess we are all searching too hard, because like forever dont exist, security probably doesnt as well. I cant even claim to know myself fully, how can i claim to know another fully, to trust implicitly?