Alongside the route you have taken to your dreams, you decide the sacrifices to be made
Because they are bound to be some
Because you are the one who determines if they are worth it
And lastly, because you will be the one to carry the repercussions of it.
Mild example that happened was during the camp, when i told myself i had to step out of my comfort zone.
I never had trouble making friends, no. But few would know in such situations, in a large camp group, you get intimidated, and you tend to stick to the people you know first, like superglue, and never let go. There, you have it, some outcasts of the camp group or a group being splitted into many subgroups.
I always got pass the first round, of stepping up and making some friends. After i did, i feel safe, and then superglue. Then i learnt that, when it happens, i kinda missed the chance to know more people and interact with them.
This time round, i pushed myself out, with several prep talks not so politely, i didnt use the glue. Independence. It was good, in certain ways. The group already has two subgroups, but i guess its alil due to me who kept flitting between the two groups that the linr is blured. And i got to know everyone in my group. It was good, it was fun but it lacked something.
The connection with someone.
So which do i prefer??
I dont know.. just like i dont know if i agree with the sentence ' the ends justify the means ' by nicolas machiavelli.
I agree with both sides. I feel so conflicted that i think i might be a psychopath. Kidding
Sometimes emotions may not be too good for you. For someone who always feels too much, and probably is smart, it is advisable to keep it in rein and out of sight, out of reach and in the heart.
Im always on the grey line.