Dilemma.. i really dont know how and people start asking me stuff i dont have the answers to.

I know where i want to get to in life, but thay doesnt mean i know how i wanna get there.
I think of the future, but never beyond the day. Cause that will make me crazy. Im contradicting myself again.

I always believed the answers will fall straight right out when i needed them, so before it comes, im just not gonna think. But the questions are driving me crazy.

I dont know. I dont know if i will be happy. I dont know how do i feel. All the more i dont know how you feel. I dont know if i will like it. I dont know if its the most suitable choice for me. I dont care if its right. Feeling so pissed and feeling so.... undescribable.

If, and only if...

And last night i dreamt that you came back. To write it in all clear honesty, you came back Aafter gathering up your courage once and for all. Held my hands and say you would never let go.

I felt.. delitriously happy. Until i realised it was a dream, and that dreams are often the opposite of realities.

Read something off the facebook and noticed that ppl are always associating success with doctors and lawyers. To hell with it.

Once i careleas made a comment but i didnt mean so.

I never do. It was all a mistake, but i never regret so becos im glad for you we didnt get together. I dont deserve you.

This was written with no hidden words, encryptions or whatever, but will never ever be posted this way.

And i hate every single little reminder of everythi everything you did for me. Everytime i said how do i settle for what i have when i once had so much more. You gave it to me.

Heads throbbing, with decisions with memories with lethargy with worries without you.