My moodswings so wide that i dont even.

I spend a quarter of my time for transport, walking, when i stone, taking the train, when i usually stone unless its super far so i read my book.
I cant think of where the heck has my time fly too, cept for stoning. Did i stone my time away? I thought i had 24hrs a day, maybe i was wrong.

so i have been reading this book enma, about historical events, in japan, and about a curse. Its a pretty good book with a really special genre.

Been going to the library to return book that i have finished while on the journey to work and turnes up borrowinf 3more.

The more i borrow, the more i read. Now the speed is currently at one book/day. And i really dont so anything but just sit and read.
And it makes me think so much. I should start book reviews hahahhha.

So anyway,
Lord enma is a god of death. Supposedly the one who pass the judgement of who should go to hell or heaven.
So this book is about a tattooist who is immortal due to a strong mindset not to die, saved by a man who inked a onigome on him. So now the oni lives in him avcepting his wish to not die thus rendering him immortal.

Apparently there was another apprentice who imprinted an oni onto himself breaking the taboo as it was said by doing so, not only did u invite the oni into your body, you become the oni itself. You will be forced to kill, for survival as the wish of the oni unfulfiled will torture the host.

So what was i trying to say was that every single coin has two sides to it. Its all perspective.

Lord enma, in most eyes, is a wrathful creature, portrayed as a hideous monster.  Did anyone think about what hes doing, passing judgement to those who deserved as being faiir? Justice is kind but never pretty. Just like beauty is not always good.

Then what is good? And what is evil? Ive long wanted to write down these thoughts cause i think this is partially the reason why i cant be a cop. I understand why people do certain things even if the society doesnt accept it , nor me, in my own judgement.

Good and evil has just a single line difference. How do you feel about a good person comitting an evil act? Or an evil person comitting a kind act?

How do you know for sure?

does a person be deemed evil when an act not socially accepted was comitted but done so to benefit someone? 

Or an act done that upholds the so cslled law  yet hurts so many others in the process?

Law and justice are two different entities.
Justice is in the eyes of beholder. Law is written by people.

The definition of good and evil is determined by each and everyone of us. So dont be too quick to judge. I would rather choose the former. It doesnt matter what tag is on you.

What matters is how you view yourself.