that i've been running away from for too long. Not a runner, but i hate dealing with this.

Sigh. I dont wanna think about it yet. I don't wanna think how am i gonna pull it through, cause i will, and if i think too much, i'll fear too much and ended up pulling through it worse.

The main point is, i'll pull through. I always do.

Feeling so restless these days. Feel like i should try bungee jumping or something that's able to kickstart my heart/ or stop it. I prefer it to kickstart too. I think it's the book cause my mood is always so easily affected. This book is so much about adventure, another parallel dimension with this FBI profiler that knows martial arts and has a helluva brain. Brains and brawns. I like.

So! I'm going for kickboxing classes, and hpoefully kick some asses. And my first aid cert is still valid, so after i kick that ass, i think i can save it.(though i don't remember nuts about saving people, 'cept for the first rule- make sure the area is safe before entering to save people LOL)

Back to what i'm on, there's no point for explanations and incriminations. Cause i knew i've done my best, and it's not enough. And people always ask what happens if your best is not good enough. I'll answer that. Life goes on. Which translates into you feeling a variety of emotions of sad, disappointed, angry, mild terms i know, your heart crunching and curling up, and you fall asleep and wake up, getting on with your life, burying it in the deepest folds of your heart.

Never regret.