I miss it over there so much.


Perhaps the memories at san fran was the most memorable.. which is why its mentioned so often.

But i get the feeling like each time i said it once i left some part of it out.

It makes me feel like i'm losing those memories.

I worry.

Those times were the best times of my life. Not because its cool. But because it was on my own. That means we planned for it, we got there ourselves.

How could i forget buying the airplanes tickets trying to save and then buying the wrong dates. I was so upset.

Who could forget nearly forgoing the trip to LA cause everyone was so chill and couldnt get hold of nimesh and amy?

why will i forget that we walked one whole round of disneyland along the freaking highway cause we got lost and couldnt find our hotel?

I wanted to remember the times. Both good and bad. Because every single thing in my life made me into who i am.

Buying the wrong tickets taught me to be careful and relying on myself is the most important thing on earth. Because you wont ever be let down when you know youve tried.

Getting rides from the guys taught me how important friends are and to be thankful. I knew them for less than 2 mths and look how giving they are.

Walking one whole freaking round around anaheim's disneyland made me realised perseverance is key to success. Ask if you dont know. You'll get there someday.

And all those that happened, makes me cherish the time i had.

I dont regret not seeing more of LA, cos what i experienced is not of a tourist but more of a local.

I shopped at the local thrift stores where it became normal for me to see more natives than tourists.

I went to k sesh in the freaking midnight. I got busted by then local traffic police for speeding though im not so proud of that.

I went to a local church service, had lunch with them.

I took the bus and went to third street after roaming the streets of venice beach selling pot.

It was crazy, sometimes bored cos we were expecting more, but now i realised it was so much more than we bargined for.

Because at this phase of my life, i needed the exposure.

Maybe i wouldnt forgive myself so easily if i bought the wrong tickets 5 years down.

Maybe i wouldve flag a cab and gave up walking tk the hotel 10 yeara down.

Maybe.. and maybe.. i would just join a tour.

I am really thankful to mama and daddy for letting me go on this trip. Even if i didnt pay for it myself, the money they spent felt like my own when i used them.

I think they knew i needed the exposure, the freedom to learn and fly.

I never dealt well with cages.

And thanks for being there when i needed you. You told me what i needed to hear, the comfort i craved and missed.

Thats why home is always where the heart is. I never told you guys much, but family always comes first.

Because acceptance is found right here.

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