I can feel it.. It's time again. I can't grumble, cos I have so so so much to be thankful about. And the only way I know how to express grattitude is to be my best.

Really don't like all of the work that is collapsing around me. ._. Procrastinate and suddenly you have so much things due all at once. I don't like that kind I feeling yet it's the only way I would do my work productively.

If not I would be thinking there's still time and apparently waste all those time just thinkin of what I should be doin and not doing some things I ought to be doing. I'm getting confusing.

During our last gems class we had. Personality test, yea again, and I finally found out how complex am I as a person. I think I like it. But I think then I won't get the understanding that I new to and I hate explaining myself.

I never saw any reasons in explaining myself unless I can see it clearly it's a misunderstanding. If that is what you think of me, then you don't know me well enough. How I feel about it is my feelings and emotions.

I guess I've changed that I talked more about stuff but I still don't talk about emotions. Cos' it's always mine and mine alone.

What I feel should not change anything because I am responsible for that.

Why do I still feel like im Always trying and trying.. How I wish I could see how people think and feel cos I think human are all complex. How can you be nice but mean? How can a disease be rare and common? It's the same theory and a freaking oxymoron.

But I know there's people who will always accept me for who I am and I have to be thankful for that.