It's amazing how you thought it couldn't get any worse but life still thinks you're happy and ban, there you are, even lower you could ever imagine.


Peopl always say don't be afraid to hot the bottom, cause then the only way is up. I wasn't. But what if, you never ever did? You just fall and fall.

It's worse to keep falling, and because youre a stupid hopeless dreamer, you dream, you hope, you get yourself up, then you fall down again, hard.

Stuck in that miserable state.

I wish I could reach the bottom soon. Bad things seemed to happen faster than I could deal with. It's waning me and my stamina, my faith and my heart.

when I thought things were bad yesterday, what happened today, made yesterday seemed like a dream.

Been so long since I broke down and never right in front of anyone. Tonight under stars, I spilled.

I hurt yesterday not because of things that happened, but because of things that didn't happen. Because i cared too much for my own sake when I shouldn't and because I always believed in people.
I keep saying I shouldn't but I still do.

Behind a heartless person, lies a heart which once cared too much.

I'm afraid I couldn't stop. What happens when your battered heart can't take it anymore but a foolish kid whom lives inside still believes? Who still tries and still loves?

I can feel it. The cold that came. The silence that I lapsed into.

I don't feel anything. I don't hate it and I don't like it. It's like I'm numb. Like how I don't feel the tears falling.

& death surrounds. I cried for the dog I once knew, for the friend who i know loves him so much, for the family, and for me. Cause I know people and animals will leave one day.

I cried for her who lost her mum, who tries to stay strong for the one in her, who can't visit her mum cause she's one.

Crap happens in life, but why?

Don't bother trying to reach, cause you'll never find me. The one that escaped into the abyss.

Please wait til she walks out of it, herself.