I dont know if it's just me, but i've been having shitluck all of my life. Already am so upset and not happy today and this is the last straw. I should really just bang my head against the wall and just die. Fuck.

Wants to rant so much.

I cant say it out, i cant share it i dont know how. sometimes there are just no words to describe what you feel and i was feeling that way. Maybe my subconscious knows me better than i do. I keep it in and i feel like exploding.

& then more. I fking hate me. Cant do anything right and now doing everything wrong. Why? I need a fairy godmother. I need a time travelling machine. I need to go back in time to undo the things i know i couldve done right. I need my wishes made at 11.11 to come true.

But none of it ever does and all life gives me is shit. I've been dealing with a hell lot more than anyone knows or understands but apparently that's not enough and it has to happen again. I know it's all my fault. And i'll fix it, even suffering. I will.