It's been so long since I've taken a slow walk by myself at night. Been rushing here and there these days, packin my days tight.

It rained today, the road's wet, and shining. Droplets on the passing cars glisten and smiled. Everything seemed so beautiful. And I'm thankful for life.

Been dealing with so much unexpected these days. I don't wanna lose anybody. Probably why my latest ambition is to be a doctor. But I can't do it, really. I can't fkin deal with death.

I'm not gonna lose her. Need to really squeeze some time out one way or another. Where has all my time gone to? So much to do, so much to be responsible for, so many people to care and love. I don't have enough of me.

Its the last 3 week yet I can't find the motivation. Evading me til now, lost my stamina so I'm starting all anew now. It's gonna be a long run, and a long night.

Competitive I know, but when I cared, I put effort and obviously I want the results. But I can't do a shit but to try again. At least the fire's in me.

I don't wanna deal with it now, coming and going. Don't have the time, don't have the brain and no heart to do so.

Needed time by myself, but with no time to spare, this will do for now. Live the moment and move on.

Realized a hug is much more powerful than words.