Saw it coming, too many warnings to be missed.

I'm left with a month. That sounds like I'm going to die but nope.

Left with so much to do and so little time. Tests seemed the most redundant. Just hope I won't fail any by accident. Wanted to know my results so I could calculate and see how much time do I have to invest. But apparently, the lecturers do not want to. ._.

I really hate this system. How I wish I could screw everything like I did for secondary school, and just crammed crap the last minute. I missed the late night studying in school, arguing with mdm tang. I missed going out to buy my fav pass red tea and dinner.

Anyway, it's gonna be daaaamn cold in beijing. :(


Suddenly, I felt like I'm at a crossroad. What if it really happens? Despite me wanting it to come true, I know I couldn't let go of everything here to pursue it, could i?

If it doesn't, I'll be left wondering what the hell am I good for.

Man are such complicated creatures, and sometimes I don't get myself.

Im really gonna miss everything here, for 3 months. Seemed so long yet so short. Wanna forget who I am before and find the real me. Seemed like the usual stuff people will say. But if you do, doesn't that mean you're questioning everything you had for 18 years of your life? If that's not you, then who? How could you be sure that the new you you found in 3 months is you?

I'm skeptical about everything. Seemed so sure yet unsure. 'how could you?'