It made me feel loved when family kept telling me not to study so hard and just go to sleep or watch tv or do something I like.

I don't dislike studying. I just hate exams. Though it's essential cause it's the one that determines our effort. But what if your effort is just not enough? I don't dislike what I'm studying. But there's just too much to remember. I don't think there's a limit to human brain, but to my pint brain, yes. My brain is really full.

I tried concentrating. God knows or whatever tricks there is. But there is a limit, and I think i reached that point. I need some space, a change of air, to remind of who I am, to take my brain off repetitive stuff and stimulate it.

Reassuring words from family all but helped me to be more determined. I don't wanna let them down even though I know all they wanna me to do is to be happy. I'm not unhappy.

I know I will be, when I tried my best and still get disappointing results. That's me.


So I don't wanna make me unhappy.
Not gonna make me unhappy now too, singing along to the songs likeacrazyonly.

To take my mind off stuff, thinking of what to wear for hk trip.

Yup, spontaneous hk trip. I think I got my spur of the moment genes from my mummy. Mama asked me if I wanna go hk this sep. And I said yup but no time leh. If not the week I end my exams we go. Just in time for retreat and swc. So checked everything on Monday and settled it yesterday. Was thinking of goin for 3 days, then mama said too little, shopping leh. Then I said 4? In the end we decided on 5 days. Then mama told me today, jialat, I think we go there sure no money come back. 5 days lehhhhhhh. Go bkk also 4 days we also pockets clean alr. So she asked me go find some places we can go instead of going shopping. Then she went on and of about macau and cruise at hk. Then she asked, if nt you don't go retreat and swc, we go cruise on hk after 5 days to Taiwan then shop at Taiwan vefore flying back. Then I said eh you wanna fly the whole world ah.

Hahahhha Anw mama went jb alr! So I'm slacking here! Really don't feel like cramming anything into my miniature puny microscopic brain. The info to cram is like 19339149271948102749x102848302749362937391 kg/conc