Bitter bitter bitter, dont feel like me anymore/ at all. Dont remember how it actually started, just felt the unhappiness build up.
Was so happy before this because of some old friends who knew you btr than anyone else/ even family, who always knew the right thing to say, and whom you feel comfortable with just being yourself.
Thankful for bffs who stayed up late together chatting about random shit from studies to burglars, just because. And thankful for bffs who sends random msges in the midst of mugging, which spoke of our future together.
Things like these in life made me happy, made me thankful that i'm living, alive, healthy and kicking.
Probably cause of these i started to expect just alil' bit more. When you always ask if i'm unhappy, and if i do i know i could always tell you everything, are you even expecting me to say it's not others, it's just you? Cause you dont seem to realised. For one, is it fate, or is it just a coincidence the date always clashes? Or maybe it just reflects how much you actually genuine care. Then when you realised something's wrong, you tried to make a hlafhearted attempt to smooth things out, and things get awkward. You thought it was studies, isnt it?
Though i will say i'm sorry for yesterday, i don't think before i react, i felt and i react. I flinched away cos i didnt know how to react.
Dont like it, but as usual life often threw something you dont like to you. Maybe it's time.
On a side note, watched transformers todayyyyyyyyyyy. I loveeeeeeee this kinda movies and thrillers, love the adrenaline rushing through me, been long since i didnt anything wildly exciting like a badass rollercoaster. Kinda miss the superman from aussie, but lost that exciteness cos been on it a few times.
Bumblebee is my boyfriend, i wanna marry him.
