I dont like being pressurised. I feel cheated. Isnt it supposed to be a joyous event. Yet i dont feel it. I dont even think i should be. Its a different matter totally.

To start, it seemed that this is the ideal, cause nothing will arise out of it. If that is really the case, then i wont mind. If everything remains as it is. But no, and i cant stop it. Then why in the world is this decision made?

Is it fair to just think of yourself and not for others? It's right that all human being are selfish, i'll admit that. But to the extent that it affects others? I dont think so. Not for me.

It's ridiculously reminding me of stories heard.

Ridiculous, stupid, redundant. I want my happiness back. Not to trouble myself over something no one cares.

Had CSH today. For just a minute, rach and i got friends and politics respectively. I didnt think, for a minute, i felt.