There are days when nothing seemed to matter. Dumb things could happen and nothing seemed to matter.

And then, there are days like this, when everything seemed to matter and i become so darn bloody sensitive.
When i feel like you don't care.
When i feel pissed at something others have done.
When i feel like i don't matter.

And when i finally put it down. It came back to me.

Why do people segregate stuff like Yours, Mine, and not ours? Whatever happen to being together? Whatever happened to respecting other's opinions?

It's hard to really draw a line between responsibility, and stepping over.
I don't wish to be termed as irresponsible, but i get the feeling like i'm overstepping.

And just when i'm feeling darn down about all these, someone told me "Thats probably why people like me and ** loved you as a friend in the first place" ,"You were always so happy in sec school, or rather you didnt let the sad stuff bother you".
Hi, i don't know if you'd ever read this, but if you do, just know that i really do miss you and the rest. I never doubt you or anything before, even if you were an ass. Simply because you're you too.

I'm thinking about alot of stuffs currently. Had alot of heart-to-heart chats with people and they really offered me great advice. Kinda weird, cos i never used to do that with people. It's always me handing out advices.

I've realised that sometimes people aren't bad. It's just that you can't really communicate with each other. Communication counts alot, if you're building a true friendship. I'm not saying those fleeting friendships, i'm saying one that you can keep for years and years to come.

If you met a person that you can't see eye to eye, yet you'll have to face that person cause' of some reasons, what would you do?
Dear told me that sometimes, if people can't click, you'll just have to avoid that person. Not saying you'll have to totally ignore that person, it's just that lesser communications means lesser friction.

I should learn how to stop caring what some people thinks, whom don't really care. Hell, there are others who really truly cared. Why should i spend useless time trying to hang on to someone who don't care?

After everything, i still find it hard. There's so many obligations, and too little me.
I'm sorry for not going home with Cy the whole of last week, when she told me, i felt really guilty for that whole day.
Sorry cos i felt that i neglected dear too much, i know cos it's obvious.

Some people matter more to me then others do. & when they don't care, it kinda feels 100x worse. Though it's probably because of my own actions.

Chatted with Zoe sweetie on that day. She told me something that i found it really true. You'll have to try to see if it works out. If it does, then you continue, you might realise he's the one. If it doesn't, that's what breakups are for. And that, through relationships, i can understand myself more. Lastly, she told me to follow my heart.

And today, told queen that it's so scary, taking the first step without knowing where it leads. Worse of all, i don't really know what i want. She told me if i dont take this step, i won't ever know what i want.

I guess i have alot to think about tonight. First, get it into my head not to be so sensitive, and stop trying to please everyone. No one can ever do that.