Aloha!
I have actually alot of stuff to post about, because i've been busy for this few days! Which is refering to yesterday and today.
But first i actually had this weird dream/nightmare yesterday night, and it actually freaked me out because it's the second time.
It reminded me of the time when i had recurring nightmares. Though that nightmare is quite mundane if i'm not wrong, just winding routes and the other i don't remember. The dream i had yesterday was quite real, cause i actually felt as in i can't breathe. Okay, i should probably explain how the dream goes.
Oh, and usually i don't remember the dream much after i wake, this time round it's pretty clear. Etched in my memory man!
It's roughly about me and a few key characters, whom i've forgotten which is a good thing, because i read somewhere that you don't dream and remember the person, if not you'll get confused between the reality and dreamworld. And, to continue, we all have to die because of something. It's either we kill ourselves, or something worse will kill us. So i had to watch everybody die, til there's only me and a few survivors. We wanted to settle every thing before we die, like arranging the tables (yeah, i know it's random) and etc, i can't remember that clearly. I remembered I didn't want to die, but i was anxious to kill myself because i didn't want to get killed by that something worse.
This part has two parts, because the first time, I sliced my heart with a bluddy sharp blade, because it will hurt less and kill faster. Then i realised i'm slowly dying but i can't bring myself to plunge the knife in. Then i saw the others slitted their thumb/wrists. And slowly dying. My last thought before i woke up with that we're all slowly dying, what if that something worse kill us first? And i actually experienced the throbbing pain of my heart when i woke up.
When i went back to sleep,the scene was someone/something came out. I remembered that person clearly because it was someone i know and remembered. She wanted to play a game with us and we had no choice because she's powerful. I asked her then, was she the reason why everyone had to die, and if i lost, will she kill me? At that point of time, i remembered while i was moving the stuff, i stepped on something, and my feet hurt. Then she laughed,( it's a cute laugh somemore) and replied with, Oh, you're cute. And started strangling me. I tried to help her by clenching her hand tighter around my neck cause i knew i can't bear to kill myself.
The most important point is til the last moment, which i don't know how long is that, i didn't manage to die, she let go of my neck, and i actually reminded myself it's a dream. But i still can't breathe, and my feet still hurt. Despite that, my mind was clear, and i know i won't die. I didn't want to open my eyes because i wanted to know what would happen. In the end, i did because i really was suffocating. My feet was hurting because it was stuck in the side of the bed. Rolls eye yeah, but I'm quite intrigued about the whole dreamworld after the night.
Therefore! I went to research a little about such things! Google is my new BFF!
What i found out was, about Lucid Dreaming, which is being awake to the fact that you are dreaming. This awareness can range from very faint recognition of the fact (which is often too brief and nebulous to be considered truly lucid) to something as momentous as a broadening of awareness beyond what has ever been experienced even in waking life.
Lucid dreams usually occur while a person is in the middle of a regular dream and suddenly realizes that she or he is dreaming. The person is then said to be "lucid", and may enter one of many levels of lucidity. At the lowest level, the dreamer may be dimly aware that he or she is dreaming, but not think rationally enough to realize that events/people/actions in the dream are not real/pose no threat. At the highest level, the dreamer is fully aware that she or he is asleep, and can have complete control over his or her actions in the dream. However, with low mental control your decisions could be biased not by your opinion, but by your brain. You can control your dreams using the lucid dreaming methods that follow.
Okay, pretty cool huh. I guess i'm at the lowest level. But how do i explain the feeling? It's so real. *Shudders*
Or maybe this happened.
Try Stephen Laberge's mnemonic induction of lucid dreaming (MILD) technique.
- Set your alarm clock to wake you up 4 1/2, 6, or 7 1/2 hours after falling asleep.
- When you are awakened by your alarm clock, try to remember the dream as much as possible.
- When you think you have remembered as much as you can, return to your place of rest, imagining that you are in your previous dream, and becoming aware that you are dreaming. Say to yourself, "I will be aware that I'm dreaming," or something similar. Do this until you think that it has "sunk in." Then go to sleep.
- If random thoughts pop up when you are trying to fall asleep, repeat the imagining, self-suggestion part, and try again. Don't worry if you think it's taking a long time. The longer it takes, the more likely it will 'sink in,' and the more likely you will have a lucid dream.
FYI, this are informations on how to lucid dream, though it came naturally to me. Maybe it's because of that! Only that i'm not awakened by my alarm clock, it's just the jolt.
But after reading the methods, it makes me kinda scare that i may go out of control or can't wake from my dreams. Sigh, i think i've watched too much Inception.
Example: Try marking an "A" (which stands for "awake") on your palm. Every time you notice the "A" during your waking hours challenge whether you are awake or asleep. Eventually you may see the "A" in your sleep and become lucid.
What if even when you see the A in your sleep and you thought it's in reality and you don't ever wake?
But actually i think i should stop asking this kinda of questions. Until i really done my research on this topic, and know for sure i didn't misunderstand the sentence and this is not a stupid question!
Okay, toodles for now. I'm gonna continue to my research!
