DAY 19 ; [:
was okay today, saw you thrice; can feel dat strings are slowly learning to let go. perhaps, if he treated as he dint see me at all, i would feel btr, and strings would slowly released, dance was damn sucky, wtf larhs. ARSE siahs, tio suan/attituded. dont try attitude me or you will get it back THREE times. FOOK YOU. 11 more days. how fast and slow time's moving, tmr's the big day, hope i will do fine, but part of me is just not caring anymore.i dont think dat anyone's gonna care much. except for some with dancing as their passion, it used to be mine, but you guys have destroyed it. so i could do nth but watch you guys destroy the passion that use to be mine. perhaps, dancing is not for me.
dint sleep well, neither did i enjoy the day, but many thanks to gina, she brighten up my day, love her loads. guess, our friendship isnt that strong anyway. once you are away from me, you just find someone else. i really hope you are mine but maybe you arent suppose to be with me. i brought you sadness and tears. but you should know that you really brought light to my life. if ever one day you would leave to find something btr. i wish you all the best, couldnt be so selfish, to keep you all to myself only, and you deserve someone btr den me . was tiring dis few days, the vitamins dint help at all. wanna cry , but tears wouldnt mustnt and shouldnt come out,. i just could not collapsed at this time, but things are suddenly taking a life of its own, rushing tgt towards me. the weaks always got bullied, i wouldnt be weak, but i realised i couldnt hold that position for anymore longer. hoping to do well in everything is just impossible. but i dont want everything to be bhind of times. i wanna be dat cheerful girl who handles her things very well, and still maintaning her brightness. but i couldnt find her ANYWHR. she just GONE.Labels: collapsing, how nice.
